This not having a job and living in this ugly weather is killing me. When I was in college, I used to view every thing in such a positive manner. I felt hopeful for the world, like I could go out there and change it. Now I am sitting on my bed, almost a year later post graduation and I feel like scum. I have always worked so hard at school because I saw it as my answer, my answer to progress. I have a Bachelor’s from a so called good school and I literally can’t find nothing. I have been applying for the most basics of job and still nothing, not even an interview. I am such a good worker. Im reliable and love performing my best at everything I do.
I feel like a parasite to my girlfriend. She has been paying my bills and I really can’t handle it. I like to be independent. But why? Why can’t I find a job.
Sometimes I wish I could believe in God. It is nice to know that there is someone out there who is watching out for me. But then I think about how we only want God when things are hard, no one thinks of God when things are good.
This really sucks.
Send me back to California. like now. I miss the sunshine on my skin, but most of all, extrano la cultura.